PSA: I wrote most of this piece right after the concert but it's been months since, I've added stuff here and there, and finished the last bits tonight. I guess what I'm saying is: don't mind the time references, hehe.
It's been over a week now, I’m back home. Going to university, going to work, the usual jazz. But it’s not the same as before. Now everything is a little dull, colors are muted, while my emotions and feelings are still as intense as on that day. Quite frankly, the concert seems so far away, maybe because it feels like I've been dreaming ever since I got on that morning flight last Tuesday. Time is truly a peculiar thing. Tickets went on sale on 1 June but the time between then and now feels like a year. It is especially funny because a few days before the concert I kept saying that it's as if it was yesterday that we were lucky enough to get tickets.
I also find it fascinating how we perceive the passing of time so differently: while I have never felt 3 hours pass by so fast, my friend said it went by very slowly for her, allowing her to ponder about many things during the concert. And then you have me, who at one point actually panicked and silently prayed for time to stop because it was going too fast and it was going to end too soon when this experience should never end, this feeling should be constant and forever, always in my heart and mind, so why must the world take it away from me? But this only lasted for a split second. I'm good at wasting time but this was an experience I was simply unable to let go to waste.
You know, I frequently experience things in contradictory ways and this concert was no exception. Many people say that going to a BTS concert was like an out-of-body experience for them-- and I can agree to a certain extent. It did feel strange, as if I myself wasn't there watching the boys, yet... Yet never ever, in my entire 23 years of living on this planet, have I felt being so, so present, being so in the moment. Not for one second did I think of my struggles, my problems, my illnesses, my worries... It's like BTS just barged in, swept all of that into a room and kicked the door shut, locked it and threw away the key.
I'm tearing up right now, thinking about this... but it had been so long since I had felt that peaceful and just happy. Actually, there might not even have been a time like that before. I felt light, buzzing with excitement and energy, felt like I could do anything, achieve everything I set my mind to, like I could be the version of myself that I love, live the life I have always wanted. So, fuck all that bullshit people throw at you when you tell them you like kpop. Fuck all the people that belittle the power of music and the genuine hearts of artists. These little miracles that are created by artists and are nurtured by fans, they matter. They matter so much.
I think part of the reason why I managed to live through this concert so intensely was because I decided to completely abandon my phone. Yes, there are moments when I do wish I had my own videos and photos to look at instead of my friends’, but I don't regret my choice. Not for one second. I did try getting my phone out a few times to snap some photos and record videos but each time I got so annoyed that they were not turning out good enough and that the whole process was distracting me that I just stopped caring. It's really funny because the only thing I felt besides joy was annoyance: I was annoyed at myself for distracting myself and once I was annoyed at a few girlies next to us who kept swinging their ARMY bombs in front of the screen and blocked my view hehe.
So yeah, it was all joy, no sadness and no... tears. I did not cry. At first, I didn't know how to feel about this. I always imagined myself bawling my eyes out through I'm Fine and Magic Shop and when tears didn't come during those songs, I knew I would not shed a tear through the whole concert either. It was strange and for a second, right then and there, guilt started to snake its way into my head, especially when I saw other people and my friends cry. But I shooed it away, I didn't have time for dealing with that, to be honest. I'm still not sure I completely understand why I couldn't cry but my best guess is this: the mere presence of the boys filled me with so much excitement and happiness that it completely fried my brain and I could not embark on a trail of tears. And quite frankly, I could not, for the life of me, remember the reasons why I'm Fine and Magic Shop make me emotional in normal settings. My depression seemed so silly there, its existence was a joke. It was a very peculiar yet liberating state of mind to be in. I miss it.
Naturally, everyone comes away with different experiences from each BTS concert. But I have read many recaps of BTS concerts and they all seemed to repeat the same few things, however, my experience was unlike any of those. I have mentioned that I felt happiness but it was not the kind of euphoric, exhilarating, overwhelming happiness that most seem to write about... My happiness stemmed from contentment and peace. It was calm, warm, and soft around the edges, it enveloped me like my favorite fluffy blanket my mom got me for Christmas a few years back. It was, without a doubt, the Nicest and Kindest emotional state I have ever experienced. But this wasn't the most magical part of the night.
About 4-5 songs into the concert I noticed another feeling settling in me that I couldn't quite put my finger on but about halfway through, it finally clicked. I felt like I was home. It's strange because an arena filled with 17,000 strangers in a foreign country is the last place you would expect to feel like home but when something is so, so incredibly special, it has the power to turn an arena into a home, a safe place where you have this sense of being invincible as long as seven boys are there before you, extending a hand to hold. As I was thinking about this, I remembered a piece of lyrics by Troye: “but home is just a room full of my safest sounds”. And it just fits wonderfully, doesn’t it? Those seven voices, the melodies of my favorite songs, the familiar fanchants, and my friends on both sides of me. That arena was indeed full of so many of my safest sounds.
And I think BTS is my home outside of home. Their voices soothe me and their words provide comfort. They also gave me an extended family, living in all parts of the world, so wherever I go, I'll always find someone who shares the same love for them and that's as good a place to start as any when you feel lonely. The world seems less scary when you don't face complete loneliness, no matter where you are.
It was such a beautiful thing, really, wandering around in Berlin on those two days... ARMYs were swarming the city, smiling whenever they noticed each other. Shout out to the cute girlie who softly yelled "BTS!!" at us when we got off the S9 at Alexanderplatz and she noticed my OT7 enamel pin <3. ARMYs in general were so nice and so incredibly diverse, so many generations, races, and genders were represented… I loved being part of this whole community. I really felt like I belonged and I was welcome.
Everyone also adhered to the rules and instructions, the merch line was so organized and peaceful, as well as the concert, but what really touched me happened after the concert. After having stood in the merch line for 3,5 hours we really didn't feel like lining up for the photo wall too and when we went back for the concert, the line was really long. After the concert, we decided to try and go back to it to take some pictures. There were no staff present anymore, so you would expect a lot of pushing, fighting and yelling, right? Well, there was none of that. Everyone was moving slowly, giving each other space to take pictures, offering help to take pictures, apologizing for bumping into the other... It was just really, really nice and wholesome. Everyone was so precious and you could just tell everyone just loved the boys so, so much. It made my heart smile.
I probably don’t voice what I’m about to say enough on twitter but please believe me when I say this: the thing I love the MOST about BTS is their music. Not their personalities, not ships, not Taehyung. It’s their music. My friends know this because I have elaborated on this before, but music really matters to me a whole lot when it comes to kpop groups. There are groups that I think have wonderful members and are very talented—but their music does not resonate with me at all or not to an extent that would make me want to stan them.
What has always stood out to me about BTS is their lyricism, especially Joonie’s. I’ve always been an absolute SUCKER for beautiful lyrics (I’ve been loving lyrical king Ed Sheeran for 7 years know!!), so BTS was essentially just waiting for me to love them. A nice benefit of having started learning Korean is that there are many parts of their songs that I understand now (not translate in my head but really just understand). It really made my heart constrict a little whenever those parts that I understood came in songs like I’m Fine or Magic Shop. Understanding their lyrics in Korean really takes the whole listening experience to a whole new level, especially if you add the impact of the live performance. Because these boys give their absolute everything in each of their performances. There are members who are better at fully embodying and then expressing the songs and there are members whose strong point is something else but it’s a beautifully balanced act when they perform as a group. The absence of Jungkookie from the choreographies could be felt but he made up for it vocally so well.
Anyway, back to the songs… I’m so happy I got to attend this specific tour because the Love Yourself trilogy is probably my favorite thing they’ve done so far, Love Yourself: Tear is my favorite album (I was a bit sad about the exclusion of several songs in the tour from this album but minor details…). With two exceptions, I prefer these solo songs to the ones on Wings. And if this setlist wasn’t made for me anyway, we were also lucky enough to have them perform their setlist B medley!! Which consisted of Boyz with Fun, Attack on Bangtan, Fire, Baepsae, and Dope.
Boyz with Fun and Attack on Bangtan are such iconic bops and I never ever expected to hear these songs live, so I completely snapped during the concert, at one point I was really concerned that my ARMY bomb was going to fly out of my hand, hehe. Baepsae is one of my favorite tracks and I absolutely loved how they mixed it up a little, it was a definite highlight of the night for me, I even tried to dance the choreography, hehe. Fire was hella lit and Jimin. OH BOY. Jimin. Okay, 3:33 is pretty crazy on video but let me tell you it’s absolutely fucking MINDBLOWING in real life. I didn’t want to believe my eyes, he was doing it right in front of me, his feet were moving at the speed of light and I was rendered speechless. I still get goosebumps whenever I think about it.
And lastly, they closed the medley with Dope. What I can still clearly recall from this is when they went back to the main stage to do the choreography and that shit really did a number on me. It was a strange sensation because the realization that they REALLY exist hit me when they started dancing Dope but at the same time, it seemed completely surreal that they are real. It’s an iconic choreography in my book and just… their synchronization and energy gave me goosebumps. On a side note, the urge to go down there and hit Jungkook was REAL strong during the medley. Homeboy was WILDING throughout the entire thing, he went so hard, I started to worry about his foot injury. He realized his mistake though, during his ending ment, he apologized for getting a bit carried away and promised to recover quickly, so he can dance again. <3
I think one of the strongest points of BTS’s live performance is how they connect with the audience. Even though we were sitting somewhat far away from them, they still made me feel like I was a part of their little shenanigans. Their love for us and for performing just radiates from every single pore of their bodies, it’s absolutely beautiful. That night I also finally realized that they are not exaggerating when they say we give them the energy they need to do well. Taehyungie seemed very exhausted and sort of sad in the beginning of the concert, which, not gonna lie, made me super worried and anxious. The last thing I wanted was for him to be sick or uncomfortable… But as the concert progressed, he just blossomed. He gained energy, he seemed more like himself each passing second he spent interacting with us. This made me super emotional and incredibly happy, I was so glad we could be his (and their) strength, it felt like I somewhat paid him back for all the support I have received from him.
Okay, I'd much rather blabber on about the members, so here we go.
Hoseokie
His first impression was the most memorable to me. When he first addressed us after Idol, I was completely floored. This man is so ridiculously beautiful, he literally glows like the sun, he radiates warmth and happiness and an intense yet soft energy. Whenever he smiled, my entire soul glowed with him, it’s like he accessed every last ounce of positivity in me and he set it free. His aura is completely mesmerizing and captivating, I was so naturally drawn to him, it was extraordinary and unlike anyone I have ever encountered before. Another thing that completely caught me off guard was his English. His pronunciation and intonation sounded so natural in those few phrases and sentences he used… as an American Studies grad student, I salute him.
I don’t even know how to go about describing his stage presence, rapping and dancing. He demands your attention, it doesn’t matter whether he’s acting cute or sexy, his entire being just naturally demands your attention. His rapping slaps in real life. I respect him so much for learning how to rap from scratch because he didn’t stop at being decent, he developed his skills into absolute perfection. Not even intense choreography interferes with his flow, he sounds flawless live… Even better than the studio versions. And lastly but most importantly: his dancing. Hoseokie’s body is UNREAL. The way he moves is fucking insane, several times during the concert I had to sit back and reevaluate everything I have ever learned about human anatomy, HE’S A GOD. Just Dance was a stage that only he could pull off, I was absolutely stunned. I really wish I could have seen him perform Mama, from photos and videos he seemed to have glowed in a different way—probably due to the deeper personal connection to that song, however, I am really happy I have seen Just Dance because that entire stage is just so Very Him. On top of everything, his personality is the cutest ever, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, I wanted to throw myself into space when he said his “I’m your Hope, you’re my Hope, I’m J-Hope” line, oh god, I can still hear his intonation, HE’S THE MOST PRECIOUS EVER. My memory completely failed me but according to videos my friends recorded, he came to our side a lot during the last few songs and he was cutely shaking his beautiful lil booty in front of us. <3
Joonie
Not to be dramatic but I would die for this man. I can still recall how his voice sounded when he first greeted us. Actually, the whole “2,3 Bang – Tan, 안녕하세요 방탄소년단입니다” was one of the most surreal parts of the concert for me. I had been listening to Joonie prompt this greeting for over 2 years now and to have it directed at me was something I never really prepared myself for, so it caught me off guard a little. When he spoke English in between songs, he just sounded really effortless and cool and he excelled at creating the foundation of a connection between them and us from the very beginning. His solo stage was what I would call perfect Serenity. This was partially because of the nature of Trivia: Love itself but I believe it had a lot to do with the fact that it was Kim Namjoon performing and not RM. I had heard people mentioning this before our concert and I was very curious to find out what exactly they meant and whether I would perceive it in a similar fashion. I heard the first chords of the song and suddenly the RM I had been observing up until that point disappeared and gave way to the Joonie that gently holds baby crabs and has the time of his life playing with filters on V-Live. My heart was so, so full of happiness and love while watching him, this man is truly a little diamond—he started off with dark thoughts, mistakes and problems but time and pressure formed him into someone absolutely beautiful and precious, albeit still imperfect, in need of a little more polishing. Like we all are. This stage really made me sure of the fact that Joonie is a wonderful role model in many different areas of life but especially when it comes to self-love and self-improvement. Oh, and I absolutely adored how the rest of the boys came back on stage for the last quarter of the song, it added a beautiful touch to the message of Trivia: Love.
However, Joonie can go really hard too, and he did exactly that for most performances. RM is incredible live, I think he was made for performing on stage, like the rest of them. But I just love Joonie so fucking much, my most vibrant and prominent memories of him are the ones when he was talking and goofing off. During Anpanman, Tae was recording with a self-camera and I can still so clearly see Joonie trying to get in the frame and act cute but failing and standing there a little awkward for a second before snatching the camera from Taehyungie. My heart was overflooded with affection, I wanted to go down there and hug him. But what stuck with me the most was his ending ment. I admit that I did not expect the topic he dabbled into. At all. Here’s the transcript from wisha:
I’m neither German, nor Korean, so I can’t really reflect on his speech from their perspective. But I am from Eastern Europe and I know our history and Germany’s history very well, so I have a certain depth of understanding of the implications made by Joonie. And I think he’s brilliant and so, so very socially and emotionally sensitive to make such comparisons with such a bittersweet undertone and comforting message. I also fully believe that it was not a coincidence that we met that day. 17,000 ARMYs and them, on a fall evening in Berlin. He called it destiny, but you could call it fate, God’s will, whatever. However, I am absolutely convinced that each and every one of us was there for a reason. We really needed to be there. It’s our own job to figure out the details, though.
(Also, a lil funky part of the concert was when he slapped Jiminie’s ass right in front of my salad. I, a moonfairy, was soaring high in the sky that night.)
Seokjinnie
He’s so fucking BIG. When he finally walked to the front stage, that was my first thought. He’s big because he’s tall AND broad. He’s also ridiculously handsome in real life. I personally think that Seokjin is one of those people whose beauty does not photograph well. I’m not saying he doesn’t look absolutely handsome in pictures, however, photographs cannot even compare to videos or real life. There are many photos that have turned out extremely well but I think most pictures fail to convey his striking features properly.
I really wish I could go back numerous times and rewatch every performance seven times because I barely have any clear memories of Seokjin from performances other than Epiphany, The Truth Untold and Anpanman (I barely remember anything to begin with, by the way). There are still moments that come back to me from time to time, moments where it hit me just how good of a dancer and overall performer he has become. I never thought he lagged behind the others but I could see his improvement both in terms of dancing, singing, and the level of confidence he radiates when he performs, he’s truly come a long way and I’m so happy his hard work is paying off so beautifully. Especially his vocal skills have developed so much. Epiphany was… It was so heartfelt and emotional. That song was really made for his voice and he performed it flawlessly. Unfortunately, I am not skilled enough to describe what it was like to hear 17,000 people sing this song together but it was one of the most eerily beautiful experiences of my life and I will cherish it for a long time.
Also, he’s such a goof, his antics were so funny. And I absolutely loved how Joonie encouraged him to snatch himself an ARMY bomb and do his thing with it. He loves us so much and it’s absolutely the cutest thing how he’s always trying to convey that. Maybe I wanted to give him a back hug and never let go. Also we’re 98% sure he noticed Fanno’s slogan, so thank you seokjin!!!!!!!! HOWEVER… I’m never forgiving him and Taehyung for depriving me of their signature chaotic gay moment in So What. I was anticipating their interaction so much.
In conclusion, give Seokjin more lines because his voice needs to be heard way more than what I got to hear.
Jiminie
HE’S SO TINY. He’s not short, okay, he is not. Neither is he small. But he is teeny-tiny and I want to keep him in my pocket forever. Jimin is absolutely stunning in real life, he radiates not quite the same but a very similar gentle, soft warmth like Hoseok. It soothed my soul to look at his glowing face, he just looked so endlessly kind and good, like an angel, really. He has a very distinct and unique voice and he sounded so, so angelic. It was truly blissful listening to him, his voice never cracked. I especially loved his TTU performance, some of my favorite parts of that song is sung by him and I was blown away by how he performed it live. Really, the whole vocal line excelled. The amount of raw emotions they managed to convey in the studio version? They doubled it live, it was absolutely stunning. Anyway, Jimjam also sang so beautifully during hard choreographies too, I was so, so impressed, especially because ugly people like to attack him and downplay his abilities based on some performances that didn’t go all too well… But once again Jimbo proved them wrong and I was so happy to witness it in person.
He’s also my dancer fairy. Oh boy. I have always loved the contrast between his and Hoseok’s style when it comes to dancing. His contemporary dance background is evident and I’m so in love with the way he moves his body, I could watch him dance for hours on end. However, what absolutely blew my mind… And quite frankly, I’m still in awe… Freaking 333 in Fire!!! He did that right in front of my eyes and yet I did not want to believe it was real. His legs moved at the speed of light, it was absolutely ridiculous.
Serendipity holds a special place in my heart, the softness of that song soothes me in the gentlest way. Naturally, I was super excited to see it live, however I was a tad bit disappointed with the color scheme of the stage. I mostly associate bright yellow and sky blue with Serendipity, but their choice was mainly the blue of the night sky… It was pretty, the bubbles were so perfect, but that blue, along with the black outfits, was way too dark for the song that’s daffodils and peacock royal butterflies for me. Also, the sexy bits of the choreography threw me off very much. In its execution, the entire performance was beyond beautiful, simply, it was in too much contrast with the song for my liking. (As a side note, I have seen the LY in Seoul movie, and I liked the stage there a lot more and the only difference was the lighter outfits. I wish they had kept that for the whole tour T.T)
Anyway, Jimjam is so lovely, to this day, my heart constricts whenever I recall his tiny frame and glowing face. Yes, he did naughty stuff too during certain songs, especially Baepsae but. He’s my little fairy still.
Okay, and one last thing. Probably my most prominent memory from that night, I can still recall it crystal clear. Taehyung and Jimin’s friendship is so precious and I admire it very much. They share such a precious bond, I Love them; so to have seen Jimbo just haul Taehyungie on his back and keep him there for a little while… I still get so impossibly soft and endeared by this little moment. This was also followed up by Hobi going over and scolding Jimin for straining himself when he’d had bad neck pain the day before T.T I can still remember Hobi’s every movement and facial expression, this was such a very bangtan moment? If that makes sense? That was one of the few moments when I felt I wasn’t dreaming, it wasn’t an alternative reality, but it was really them, right in front of me.
I’d like to preface here that my bias list is coming up and I have this tendency where the more I love someone, the worse I am at expressing it. So. Yeah. Just don’t mind the Taehyung part, that’s probably going to seem like the most half-assed, insincere thing ever but. Words don’t seem to cooperate when he is involved.
Jungkookie
Oh, boy. I was quite scared of seeing him because feelings are so intense when it comes to Jungoo. First of all, the way he looks absolutely breathtaking? Photos have prepared me well for this, but still, his beauty knocked the air out of my lungs on more than one occasion. I truly believe his face was carved by a god to look like that. I thought I was attracted to him before, but after the concert I had to reevaluate everything because we reached new heights in this respect.
I was absolutely devastated for a few days after BigHit announced that he had hurt his foot and would remain seated for most performances. I really cannot stand when any of them is seriously hurt, either physically or mentally, so I really just wanted to wrap him up in a blanket and keep him away from anything even just mildly bad. I was also a bit bummed because the power and emotion with which he dances always mesmerizes me, I think we both hated it a little bit that he had to sit on a chair for most of the concert. But I also found the most beautiful, shiniest silver lining: I might have not survived, if he danced in front of me, it might have been too much… okay, no. The most silvery silver lining was that in this unfortunate scenario he could focus on his singing much more, and my god, it showed! Euphoria was something else that night. I felt like he really used his voice to its full potential. Besides every note dripping with emotions, his technique was very spot on and undisturbed because there was no choreography to strain him. Absolutely fantastic job, my little golden boy.
But of course, it’s Jungloo we’re talking about here. He, and I cannot stress this enough, cannot stay put on his toned, beautiful butt. When we were on the second song of the medley, I felt like something was strange… then I noticed this whole dumbass bunny on our side of stage, going absolutely mental, jumping around and dancing. I was very, very, very, super close to just fly right down and flick his forehead for being an irresponsible little nugget. But at the same time, it was a different kind of happiness to see him let go and have fun in true Jungkook style. And luckily, his foot did not suffer severely from his little shenanigans. He even apologized for this in his ending ment… little nugget.
You know, he is really a man now. But he retained this childlike wonder and happiness inside him, and that is a little miracle I’m so grateful for. An absolutely adorable little nugget. Jeon Jungkook, the way I love you so much…
(Very much within these brackets I will hide the memories of the short magical moments when he was being goofy or cute with Tae. And that little thing during DNA. I’ll keep those memories in the prettiest box in my mind.)
Yoongi
Min Yoongi is a dangerous man. I have always kept myself from feeling all the things because he touches my soul and mind in really intricate ways. However, I absolutely did not expect to be completely enchanted by him. From the second he set foot on stage and I spotted him, I could not tear my eyes away. Literally, I am not exaggerating. Wherever he roamed on stage, my eyes followed. I could not get enough of him, I was drinking up his every movement, his every expression at every chance I had. It got to a point where I had to consciously, physically tear my eyes away from him and focus on other members, because otherwise I would have happily spent the entire two and a half hours in a Min Yoongi trance.
He's beautiful beyond words. I really cannot even compare him to anything or anyone, his beauty is unique and very particular to him. Mesmerizing and breathtaking. Ever since the concert, I have been unreasonably mad at almost every single photograph of him because they AIN’T SHIT. To say that they don’t do his ethereal beauty justice is an understatement. The only thing they manage to capture very wholesomely is his gummy smile. Yoongo is too cute for his own good and my own good. He’s also tiny like Jimin. Not short but tiny, pocket sized.
As for his performance. Whew. Seesaw blew me away. It is one of my favorite songs to begin with, and the entire stage was just amazing. I did not expect him to dance, like at all. The choreography was such a lovely surprise for his solo, and he executed it so exceptionally well.
He is my favorite rapper in BTS and the way I am in love with his voice kind of hit me in the chest sometime around two bars into his verse in I’m Fine. He has such a wide range of style, he changes between them so fluidly, it’s amazing. Mic Drop and Tear really took me to another plate of existence. Maybe that’s my religion, Yoongi in those songs. But the way he warmed my whole heart and soul through with Answer: Love Myself… I’ll remember that forever. Actually, the entire song was like a tiny, little sun being born within my chest that gradually started to grow and engulfed my entire being in warmth and light.
Min Yoongi, I literally love you in the most incredible ways.
Taehyung
I swear, if I loved you a little less, I could express it much better. But I love you so, so, so, so, so very much.
Out of everything that happened in Berlin, he seemed the most unreal. I had been seeing his face for almost 3 years—in photos, in videos—and then he was there, and he looked exactly like the boy I was so familiar with. Tall, lean, ethereally beautiful and sharply handsome, yet incredibly soft all around the edges. The first time he flashed his boxy smile was a special kind of little miracle. The way he moved around on stage, the way he danced, the way he was goofing off with the others, the way he was having fun performing—it was all so very Taehyung, and I know it sounds dumb because he’s Taehyung, but everything was so very Him and it was real time, real life, and it was overwhelming to find out how much I’m endeared by the tiniest details of him. Singularity was the best solo stage and it’s honestly not coming from a biased place, the song itself is so uniquely beautiful and the rhythmically totally contrasting choreography just captivated me in ways I can’t describe. His expressions, his acting was fantastic. This was the stage I watched from start to finish without moving, barely blinking, completely hypnotized. Maybe he’s an artist and perhaps he’s one of my most favorites. If I had magic in me, I would turn his voice into the softest thread and I would weave it into a blanket in the patterns of the songs he sings. It would be filled with love. He has such a beautiful soul, he was looking at ARMYs with so much love, I wanted to squish his cheeks and shed a few tears. I will forever cherish my little slogan because he noticed it. He saw that piece of fabric with his name on it that was in my hands. So close yet so far away but just the way it should be. Oh god I’m so absolutely crap at this, but I love him, okay. The way he inspires me in so many areas of life is incredible, he really makes me want to be a better person, a better daughter, a better friend. I have already changed, and I like the direction where I am heading and he, with the rest of the members, is one of the people I have to thank for it. I’ll pay him back by living my life filled with love.
I’m not too sure how to end this. The whole concert was such high quality, you really get your money’s worth. Their music means so much to me and this concert was their most beautiful gift to me. This was also the concert in which I was the most emotionally invested, so that elevated the entire experience to a whole other level. I respect and love these seven men so much and I will continue to do so as long as I can. Soon, we’re off to a second date with them, but Berlin will forever hold the most special place in my heart.
